The Blahhhs

Well this past week I seem to have come down with the blahhhs. It sucks. I have no engergy, feel depressed and have a cold coming on as well. I thought Sunday that I was just have some allergy issues, but as it turns out I'm definitly catching a cold, which I blame souly on Matt since he was sick last week. I went out Monday night for what was to be a drink with a good friend and it turned into afew drinks, dinner, dessert and another drink at another location. It was a great night, but I think I pushed it to much when I should have been home resting.
Last night I was in bed and asleep at 8:00, no joke 8pm and I was out like a light. And I slept through the night no problems. Today however I find I'm still feeling like I was hit by a brick, my head is spinning, my ear is starting to hurt and my throught is killing.
This is not a week to be sick. Saturday is the much anticipated Wyatt-Horspool wedding and I want to be at my best.
ON another note, yesterday I was home for lunch and the little girl I've written about in the past saw my car in the driveway and decided to come in. When I asked her why she wasn't at school she told me she ran away cause she was in trouble with the principal. I asked her if her mother knew where she was and she told me she locked the door on her.
I'm not really sure what to do anymore with this child. I feel some what responsible for her, yet she isn't my responsibility. I know that this girl is lacking the attention and care she needs, and I know she is lacking any kind of parent figure in her life, but how do I change that? I can't have her over all the time, it's not right for a child to be hanging around adults all the time, but I can't turn her away knowing what is going on in her life... is there an in between?

Birthday Weekend

This past week was both my (27) and Scott's (30) birthday's. Mine being on Wednesday and Scott's being on Saturday. So Saturday night Tanya and Matt threw us a party. Tanya kicked us out of the house at about 1:30 and told us not to come home until around 3:30-4:00 so off to the reserves we went. When we got home, the house was completely decorated in keeping with the Hawiian theme and it looked amazing. Lynn Scott's mother was there with Tanya and the others started to arrive at around 5. By 7 the house, garage and backyard were pretty full. There were quite a few people there and it was a great time. I think the last few left at about 2:30am. I say I think because by 1 I was passed out and sound asleep until Scott came to bed, at which point I got up to make sure the doors were closed and candles in the garage were out. Scotts mom, sister, brother in law and his mom's boyfriend were all there. And of course all the guys we hang out with on a regular basis were there too, Joel, Markus, Ryan, Matt, Markus' girlfriend Jessie, Tanya, Matt's 4 cousins from England (who are here for the wedding this saturday) "the kid" who's real name is Ryan also, Ashley and Jay stopped in, Tammy and Larry were in and out and I know I'm forgetting some but anyway it was an awesome time!!! So for everyone who was there THANK YOU!!!! IT was most definitly an awesome time, and I will post pictures soon!!!
As of course yesterday wasn't a great day, I got up at 8:30 cause my parents called as they were coming through Kitchener on their way to London to visit Jay, so I got dressed and went to meet them and go with them. Probably not a great idea since I was feeling a little rough, but it was good to see Jay none the less. I looked around my house and thought oh my god, it was a total disaster!!! But that's okay it was worth it.
Jay is doing well, he went and got a tattoo on Saturday, it's nice and simple. A cross on his lower back that he designed himself. He seems to really like there in London which is good. Still hard to think of him as being 18 but he is...
I got home around 5 Sunday and did a few loads of laundry. I just didn't have it in me to day anything else, especailly when Brittney the little girl from down the street came over with her puppy. I love this little girl and I really don't mind her coming over but there are just some days that I can't handle it. So after an hour or so I told her it was time to go home now cause we were both not feeling well (which wasn't a lie) and going to bed. She asked if she could come over again on Monday.
She's such a sweet little girl, and it's obvious that she dosen't have a lot of guidence but at the same time since we don't her parents I'm a little cautious with her and how long she is at our place. And I can't handle the dogs running crazy in my house... she brings her little 6mth puppy "katie" with her most times that she comes over. And the dogs go crazy for the first hour or so. We have to have our carpets cleaned again since there was a "strawberry" drink spilled in the middle of my living room saturday night and paw prints EVERYWHERE as well as show marks, so I think once I do that again in the next few weeks, there will be no more dogs allowed inside the house, at least not up stairs. But how do you tell someone who has been allowed to being their pet over all this time that they can't anymore? Like I said to Scott the other night, we never should have allowed the dogs in. (the nieghbours dog "brandy" comes in all the time too, and she is a huge german sheppard.
So the weekend is over and it feels like it JUST started. This week will be a busy one, five days until the Horspool-Wyatt wedding. I know the excitement is just building for all those involved and it'll be another awesome night I'm sure!! Can't wait!!!
Stay tuned for pictures of the party Saturday night!

Parenting or BINGO??

The other day the little girl from down the street was over. Her name is Brittney, she's 11 and she's a real sweatheart. A little hyper, but she really looks up to me and comes over on a regular basis. Until this past week I thought it was just something for her to do. When she was over the other night she called her mother (whom I've never met before) and told her I'm at Laura's house and I'll be home at 8, her mother asked to speak to me which I thought was the least she should do considering we've never met. Instead her mother said and I quote "I'm playing TV bingo and it's not over until 9 so I'd really appreciate it if she stayed till then"
I was dumbfounded. Literally speechless. Which as most people know doesn't happen often. I am not a parent, but I am an older sister, and an aunt and I know how protective I am with my sister, brother and neice. I could imagine how protective I'd be of my own child..
At any rate, I took Brittney shopping with me for an hour or so, when we got home we took both the dogs for a walk on the way to taking her home. Well I didn't know that at the end of our street it is litterally "getto-ville" I'm not saying that to sound mean, or sterotype, but it was after 9pm, on a school night and the townhouse complex was full of children from ages 8 to 15 "hanging" out, I triped over two making out in the park on the ground, I almost got ran over by some others on bikes, there were children in the pj's playing in the park, on the walks and I was floored at how many children there were literally on the streets.
Maybe I'm just getting old, but this bothers me.
First of all, what parent in their right mind allows thier child to go to some strangers house? They don't know me, they don't know what kind of a person I am, or what I'm capable of. What kind of parent allows their child to be out late at night (after dark) in an area that is obviously full of crime and drugs and that scares me to be honest after dark? What kind of parent would rather play bingo then spend time with thier child and send that child away to a strangers house?
As I was walking Brittney to her door, cops showed up again. The past week we've seen police cruisers down the end of the street every night, sometimes 2 sometimes 4. This night there was just the van and two officers. Brittney's mother who I thought I would be meeting, quickly came outside yelling at the little girl to get inside right away that she didn't need to know what was happening and she didn't need to see what was about to happen.
I didn't stick around myself to see what was going to happen, I actually called Scott and asked him to start walking down the street to meet me.
I don't know how some of these people are allowed to have children, I don't know why you don't require a license for parenting...
All I know is I think about this little girl, and I worry about her. I worry about her future and what kind of girl she's going to grow up to be with the non-guidence she is getting from her mother. I wonder how this little girl is going to survive in a world full or pressure and hard choices. I wonder where this little girl will turn for answers to questions she is going to have. And more then anything I fear this little girl.

What weekend?

So the weekend has come and gone yet again... and it feels like it JUST started. Friday night was a quiet night. I met a friend for coffee after work, and then Matt and Tanya came over for a few drinks, and well a few to many I think for all of us.
Saturday Scott and I got up late, We were supposed to clean, but we decided to put it off until Sunday. Although I did to laundry. We made breakfast and then went back to bed. I love weekends cause we have the best breakfasts!! Actually it's the only time we have breakfast. We had dinner reservations that night with Tanya, Matt, and Matt's sister and brother inlaw Shellee and Criag. So we met at 7 for dinner and Scott and I left at about 11:30. It was a good time though and i didn't want to go, but Scott wasn't feeling well from the night before.
Sunday morning we got up, made breakfast again, and once again put the cleaning off. I contemplated going to Brampton for the afternoon/evening to watch the Pay Per View with my bro, but decided against it. I figured with the amount I'll have to spend in gas I won't have my coffee money for the week.
Why is it the more money you make, the more bills you seems to have?? Whats up with that?? I think about the fact that I now make twice as much as I did this time last year... and yet I seem to have the same left over. What's with that? Damn Government! With them taking that $200 a month it leaves with me very little now.... Oh well I guess the saying is true... More money more problems...

Steph Rules!

Okay seriously!!! What the hell would I do without my bestfriend?!?! Even when she's miles away, she's bailing me out!!! as you will all now see... I have links on my blog!!! Which means you can now check out my favorite people's blogs!! These are the ones I read/check every day. Hoping to kill some dead time at work, and hoping to stay caught up in the lives of those who have been apart of mine.
Now if only I can figure out this my space thing... Tim has said he will walk me through it when I'm home next so we'll see.....
Okay my next task... figuring out how to post pictures! And when I do look out!!!

BB7

Whoo Hoo Chill Town!!! For those of you who don't know I am a Big Brother junky... I love the show and I have to admit that I wasn't really thrilled in the begining I thought it was going to be a crappy season. But as it went on I couldn't help but be glued to the TV. It really did get better as the summer went on, and as upset as I was that Will got the boot I was so happy to see Boogie win it!!! Those two had to be the most entertaining people in reality TV history. Anyone else watch the final last night? What was that pathedic attempt at stealing the Chill Town hot line by Dianne and Jase? That was just sad.
I don't know I'm just glad a chill towner won. I wasn't a big fan of Erika, I liked her more then Janelle but would have loved to have seen Will and Boogie in the final... Either way they will both benefit from the win I'm sure seeing as they're so close.
Oh yeah, Russ update!!!
My puppy is doing better, he has the puppy flu and a fever but h'es taking his medicine that the doctor gave him and he's feeling much better then he was, He's still not 100% but he's getting there.

One Down...

Well my first "Grown Up" dinner went really well. The turkey was perfect... and I'm not just saying that cause I cooked it, it really was exactly perfect. Not dry, not over cooked, not under cooked it was awesome!!! I had to make two kinds of stuffing cause Scott hates onions, and two kinds of potatoes cause he hates mashed. But it was fun.
We used the good china and my gold silverware, curtosy of mom and dad from Christmas 04. I think this is the first time I've used them too.... And I know it was the first time I used my china which belonged to my grandma at one time. As I was preparing the turkey I realized I didn't have serving bowls with my set of dishes (square black plates with bamboo trees in white) and then I remembered I HAVE CHINA!!!
So we had a good night, it was an early night for a Saturday we were in bed by 11:30. I was pretty tired and not feeling super well from being up early and to bed late Friday.
Oh and I had my hair done Friday. I now how curly hair! I have to admit it looks really nice and suits me well, my highlights really stand out now. It's a little high maitenced though, I have to be sure to condition it every morning and put a spray and gel in it so that it dosen't friz, but I like it. It's a nice change. Added alot of body to it too.
So this afternoon I'm taking my puppy to the doctors, he's really not feeling well. For the past four days he has not been himself, not eating, not very energetic, just not himself. He has even growled at me at times. So he's off to the puppy doctor at 5.
That was my weekend... not to exciting but definitly telling me that I am certainly growing up. I like that, one week until I'm 27 and I'm finally feeling like it. Well I've been feeling old for a while now...BUT not as old as Scott...30 in a week and half!

The Past

So I've come to relaize that the past really dosen't need to be talked about.... You know how it is, it starts as an innocent conversation and turns into a huge fight because things are said and found out that didn't need to be known.
Well it didn't get that far, can you believe that Scott dosen't want to know ANYTHING about my past. See I'm the total opposit, I want to know about the past of the people I love and am inolved with, I do but I don't. Scott says there is no need to talk about it because it's in the past and it dosen't matter, the past is over with and that it only leads to trouble anyway.
Which I admit I agree with BUT at the same time you can't hide the past forever either. I mean eventually something is going to come up or out. Kinda like last night. I admitted to something I probably shouldn't have, we had a bit of a fight and it was over and done with. Which was good, BUT at the same time now I'm wanting to talk about everything in the past. However I AM smarter then that. I'm not opening that door cause well lets be honest, I don't have the best past and definitly one that I am by far NOT proud of.
I am who I am today though by way of the past. It's those things and experiences that made me who I am...
Yeah I'm blabbing now cause well it's Friday and a slow day at work and I don't know what else to talk about. My life is pretty damn boring...lately anyway, and I like it that way!
Big plans for the weekend.. I'm getting my hair done, and when I say done I mean a total complete change... Yep I'm going curly!!! I've wanted a drastic change for a while now, and I"ve decided to perm it. I'm nervous cause we've all heard and seen the horr stories of perms gone bad, but I'm pretty sure it'll be okay... I'll have to get a picture posted once it's done for those of you out of town!!!
Also having a turkey dinner Saturday night. No special occasion just have a turkey and want to cook it. So we're having Matt and Tanya over and we're having Turkey. I think maybe I should invite the other guys too, since I'm sure there's going to be a ton!!! It'll be fun, my first hosted BIG dinner party.
It'd be nice to have my new dinning room furniture for it but I'll have to wait afew more weeks for it. I'm getting old... new furniture excites me!!! I'm getting my parents dining room set with the huge table, six chairs and china hutch.. WHOO HOO!!! How sad and old am I?!?!?!?!?!

Looooong Weekend

Well it was definitly a long weekend this weekend. Friday night Tanya, Matt, Scott and I went bowling for the first time in like a year it was a lot of fun. I definitly needed a good night out like that.
Saturday afternoon I left for my parents place for the night. Jay and I went into the National Final Program, since Tim was going in and I'm not sure when I'll be seeing him again. It's been years since I've been to one of these programs and I must say I haven't missed it much. I've never been a big brass band fan, and I'm not really into these concert things. But I went anyway to take Jay and to see Tim. As it turns out I also saw quite a few of my "old" friends from the army days. I sat with my bro's and Ian Robinson who was a hoot through out the program.
After the program I ended up talking with Joel Ivany for a while, someone I haven't seen in years. It was acutally kind of funny to talk about the past and the old officers picnic's that we used to have to go to every year. Of course we got into some trouble at these things, Joel reminded me of how we used to break into the school behind the grace and steal cookies. It was kinda funny cause BJ Donais was there as well and all of us used to get into trouble whenever we had these officers things. Nothing beats officers camp though, those were halirous times!!! Matt Banks, Laura Robinson, Tim, Joel, BJ and myself. They were interesting weeks at Lac L'Achigan let me tell you.
It was kind of nice to see them all again and reconnect a little. It's always great to see people you haven't seen for years, see how they've grown, and how they've changed. And hope that they see the change in you as well.
Sunday after church Jay and I took off for Wonderland. It was awesome cause it was a drizzly day so the park was pretty empty, not to many people there at all. We didn't have to wait in line longer then 5 minutes for anything. It was awesome. Just as we were leaving it started to down pour, it looks like we picked the perfect day to go.
We got home in time to help Mom pick up the bread, and have Turkey dinner. It was nice cause Kim and Jeremy were home too, as a surprise to us all. Kim's car broke down just outside of Cambridge Saturday night when they were heading to Ottawa for Jeremy's cousin's wedding. Dad went and got them at 4am Sunday morning and they stayed the weekend. They finally got the car working yesterday and came back to my place for a few hours. We had brunch and had the neighbour Larry take a look at her car and find that it's her alternator. They made it back to Windsor okay, and I think she was taking the car in today to have it looked at.
All in all it was a good weekend. Sometimes I wish these weekends lasted longer just so I can get caught up on my sleep and spend more time with the family. There is never enough time when it comes to spending it with family. Especially Alyssa. That little girl is growing up so fast! And is she ever smart and full of vocabularly. She keeps us all pretty entertained. Espeically with her "leave me alone Papa" I won her a Care Bear at Wonderland which she loved, and I won Scott a Scooby Doo only to get home and give it to him to find out he wanted a Care Bear too. Can never win with that guy!!!
Last long weekend of the summer... what dose the winter hold instore I wonder... Hopefully it'll be much better then the summer that I've had. Hopefully no challenges, no touch decisions, no choices, no obsticals. Just a good relaxing, easy life.... Yeah right!